It’s very unusual to for me to allow anyone to take a full length photo – the dress is a size 20 Vivien of Holloway dress – I felt so wonderful on the day – and then as usual when I looked back on the photos I just wanted to cry!
I have taken a number of photos for this blog – but they are so beastly I can’t bear them – instead… I thought I’d post a photo of me when I was happy with my figure – lots and lots and lots of years ago now!!!
Well I thought it was time to update this page! I’ve been putting photos on the blog for a long while now – though it made me feel sick to the pit of my previously huge stomach when I started to do it – but I know a lot of people read the blog (much to my absolute surprise and overwhelming joy!) – when I first started out it was just for me and I never anticipated the amount of hits I would get – so I decided that if it helped just one person in the same situation then my abject humiliation would be worth it – although in general I have not really told anyone that I know about this blog (some have found it by accident!) – I just felt too ashamed at the state I had made myself into (I was going to say ‘at the state I had found myself in’ but I didn’t wake up one morning and suddenly find myself a bloater – it happened over a good few years – I made myself the way I was!) and now I’m taking control and making myself the way I want to be!
So… I thought today would be a good day to put this montage on – the October 2010 photos – I looked (and felt) 9 months pregnant – but the last time I was pregnant was in 1989 – I think the term ‘middle aged spread’ is very over used and underrated – it was a devastating reality for me – I couldn’t understand what was happening around my middle section – it became a total nightmare which triggered me into starting with Diet Chef – my next port of call was going to be lighter life and if that failed I was heading straight to the clinic for a gastric band – without a doubt I had made up my mind and because I’m so petrified of having an operation – I began with Diet Chef – I can’t say I haven’t looked back – because I have, I constantly look back to remind myself how far I’ve come and motivate myself to keep going! I’m still not there yet – but I am in a very happy place right now with my current weight and that in itself is motivating to continue on the journey and then the real hard work will begin… KEEPING IT OFF!