I’m seriously considering deleting this blog! I feel defeated – I lost 2lb last week… I’ve gained a pound this week! I’ve been exercising every day but I haven’t been on Diet Chef – I’m afraid I’ve been on Chinese takeaway, Toby Carvery, Flap Jack and all sorts of other non-dieting dinners and snacks I have lost the plot once again.
Sooooo………. here I am one week later. It’s not been an easy week, for starters on Friday I came down with a cold and that pretty much put paid to my newly acquired exercise routine! I dosed myself up and carried on as best as I could… I’ve had a few bloopers and a big argument with a packet of Thornton’s triple layer toffee cakes… Thornton’s won! Also I knew I’d lost 5lb before starting Diet Chef so I kind of guessed a week of maintaining might be as good as it gets…. WRONG!!! I’ve lost 2lbs!!! TWO POUNDS!!!!! What a boost! That has made my day – I now feel even more determined for next weeks weigh in.
My goal is to get back in the elevens………. I want that more than anything right now (though wave another Thornton’s triple toffee layer cake at me and all my good intentions might just evaporate) I plan to start walking again this week and to stick with my beloved Diet Chef One thing I have to mention… my digestive problems that I had been experiencing again….. have now stopped and I’m back to normal thank goodness!
I am very tired, and I’m still battling with HRT and getting the right dosage etc – I really don’t think that’s helped my weight at all. I’m having sleep problems but then I’m also taking on some huge responsibilities and dealing with lots of spinning plates and trying to keep them all in the air so to speak!
On a very happy note… on Saturday I was getting some shopping after work, and as I was going through the till a very pretty young lady rushed up to me and asked where I got my dress from because she absolutely loved it!!! As you can imagine I was thrilled to hand her a Retro Daisy card! The week before I was told I was very ‘Dita’ in the same dress As it happened just before I left work on Saturday I’d had a picture taken in the very dress that so delights everyone!
So onwards and upwards!!! I’ve still not updated you on my Novel Writing experience – that will be on here soon Lots of exciting things happening – oh and for you vintage and bombshell fashionistas out there – please check out Retro Daisy’s new blog!!!! RETRO DAISY VINTAGE BLOG
See you again soon with the above update and this time next week for my weekly weigh-in update! xxx
Here I am… like a broken record stuck in a groove, repeating the same mistakes!
After my last post… feeling all positive – I went away last weekend without weighing myself for a while… when I returned, after eating for England, I thought I had better see what was happening on the scales – I watched horrified as the numbers flickered and fluttered, eventually settling on 12st 9lbs! Surely this couldn’t be? Sadly… oh yes it could!
I took immediate action and started to keep track of what I was eating and began walking for exercise again. Also, I re-ordered Diet Chef there and then! No messing about, this can’t keep happening.
So, this morning I decided it was my official start date, as the Diet Chef arrived yesterday. I braved the scales and was overwhelmed with relief to see that I had already managed to get down to 12st 4lb again!
My intention is to update this blog every Wednesday morning with my weight and a progress report.
There is an immense amount of news to fill you in on! So much so that I have decided to divide the news into separate blog posts today – so read on for fab Retro Daisy excitement and my recent experience on the novel writing course xxx
Right then… it’s going to be a real struggle, I know it will – but I took two steps today… 1) I watched The Biggest Loser USA… to get me in the right frame of mind… 2) I put on my exercise clothes – okay, I haven’t actually DONE any exercise but the thought is firmly there
I’m trying really hard to eat the right stuff and avoid the wrong stuff, and I am going to re-order a Diet Chef hamper, just for one month – to give me a kick start.
My progress with HRT is giving me a bit of stress – on the one hand the fog in my brain has cleared, which is a massive relief and the depression I’ve been experiencing since January has also taken it’s leave – so that makes me feel absolutely fantastic…. but…. I’m experiencing some really horrid but apparently common, side effects… chronic pelvic/lower back pain, period like pains and fluid retention. I’m hoping this will eventually stop as I also had a spotty chin for two weeks – and that has now disappeared
I’m really looking forward to next week – I’m off on a Novel Writing long weekend – I’m feeling all creative and getting lots of inspiration from various sources!
It’s all slipping away – as it all slips back on I’m so unhappy with myself, I’m literally bursting out of my clothes – I can’t stand this, I don’t know what to do I can’t go back on Diet Chef at the moment because I treated my eldest daughter to 3 months worth – and she is doing absolutely fantastically well! Somehow, I’ve got to find a way through this, 12st 4lb has to be my ceiling weight – it has to stop right now.
I do have an arsonry of excuses – I’ve been really ill, the weather has been really pants, work has been really busy and I have been really eating for England! I’ve also just started HRT – after much debate and discussion with my doctor and my family, this was a huge decision for me because my Mum had breast cancer a few years ago. The symptoms of the menopause were taking me to a quite another dimension! I’ve been on HRT for almost 2wks now and I’m already feeling a zillion percent better!!! I’m very iffy about taking chemicals/drugs – I don’t even like taking paracetamol!!! So you can imagine – I have been enduring about 2yrs of total misery that has disappeared in a week! I could cope with the physical symptoms but it was the mental ones that drove me insane so to speak!
No one really tells you about the stuff that goes on in your head during the menopause – most people just make fun of the hot flushes and the night sweats – but the insomnia, memory loss, the depression, anxiety, failure to be able to concentrate and focus, scared the life out of me! Talking to other women I realised it thank goodness it wasn’t just me! Oh and then there was the itchy skin, dry mouth, skin, eyes etc!!! Yes… I tried natural remedies – but for me they simply didn’t help, but that’s not to say it wouldn’t help for someone else – just not for me.
A plan is needed – I’m going to think about it… will be back!
It’s been a busy weekend and tomorrow is my youngest granddaughter’s birthday – Gracie Lu is going to be 3 years old
We went out birthday pressie shopping today but couldn’t find exactly the right thing…. so we’re going to go again on Tuesday… any excuse for Costa and a Babycinno
I don’t want to own up to how I’ve been eating this weekend – it’s not been good, and it is truly showing in and out of…. my clothes it can also be seen clearly in my face
Like I said at the start of this entry…. tomorrow is Gracie Lu’s 3rd birthday and the party and we’re celebrating – so it will be another minefield of food – all my favourites that I am going to have to try and avoid. At this stage I’m not sure it’s possible – we’ll see how it goes tomorrow and I’ll let you know!
and the plan! Here I am as I said I would be… blogging 2 days in succession – I’ve just impressed myself
Well… I have made a good start – Diet Chef brekkie bar and an apple for breakfast… and I’m having a DC vanilla shake (my current fav) and a packet of sweet and salty popcorn – I decided to combine my afternoon snack with lunch and as it’s popcorn I can pick at it during the afternoon, rather than eat it all in one go.
I feel like I’ve got a grip on my head space today – after my bake off yesterday I needed to get back to reality and sort myself out!
I’m going to check in this evening before bed – it’s the only way I can keep myself accountable right now x
Okay… I slipped a little – I had a brownie… then I saw Mary’s comment – and I didn’t have another brownie!!!!!!! Thank you so much Mary – because seriously, if I hadn’t logged on to my blog, if I hadn’t of seen your comment – I’m pretty sure I’d have had another and possibly another – I’m holding tight now – and will be back later with hopefully good news on my foodie day (apart from the brownie slip up!) xxx
Was so very very good… and then for some unknown reason… CAKE happened again I’ve disappointed myself beyond imagination but I WILL keep trying…. night all xxx
I’m not doing very well I feel so fed up and I think the weather has a huge part to play in how I’m feeling!
Since it’s been so awful and cold I’ve been in nesting mode – I have done a LOT of baking!
I’m just not getting on track, mentally I’m way off course – I’m not sure how to deal with this, but I know I need to PDQ!
I shouldn’t be in the position – I had such a lovely boost pre-Christmas with my Diet Chef hamper – I really thought I’d cracked it, I felt absolutely gorgeous by the end of the 4 weeks – I was eating so much healthier and it was showing in my appearance and my state of mind – but since Christmas I’ve been back peddling and I feel like I am pretty much back to square one – I’m really not coping very well
I think I need to blog more often, to keep the focus - I’m tired tonight… so I’m keeping this short – but I pledge I will be back tomorrow with an update and my goal is to have a totally Diet Chef day!
Whilst the UK has a heavy dose of Snow Fever…. I’ve come down with Treatyourselfitis………. you know, when you don’t have to stick to your diet because your routine has been messed up for any possible reason however small… which for me at the moment – is the snow! It’s okay to eat toffee cake, crumpets slathered in butter and bars of chocolate, because it’s cold and you can’t go out (not that you would have gone out anyway!) and it’s snowing outside – simple as!
My waistbands are getting tighter by the hour and I’m just not getting a grip! I’m not sticking to Diet Chef and there is absolutely no good reason not to stick to it but I’m just not doing it – I am feeling particularly stressed with some big decisions and happenings – but eating my way through the contents of Cadbury’s World is not going to solve my issues!
So okay – giving myself a stern talking to! Tomorrow right? I can start from scratch tomorrow? I don’t want to start tonight because guess what? I’ve got fish and chips because…. I’m treating myself
Here’s a snapshot of my week
My Diet Chef arrived on Tuesday…. I was thrilled as I’d managed to eat a packet of not 1 or 2 or even 5 BUT 16 YES!!!!!!!!!!!! SIXTEEN chocolate teacakes from Marks & Spencer in about 2 minutes flat! I know what went wrong – I’d been in Town all day (which I will be telling you about later ) and hadn’t had breakfast or lunch – around 2pm I managed to grab a quick prawn sandwich and a cup of coffee in Costa after that I had a bit of shopping to do, and on my way out of Town I bumped into my parents and we decided to go for a coffee – although I’d had a prawn sandwich at 2pm – by 4.30pm I felt starving for some reason, however – I stayed strong and I even gave my dad, the little biscuit that comes with a cup of tea in M&S – so feeling very virtuous I enjoyed the time spent with my parents. By the time I left Town it was now dark and dinner time!!!! I was so hungry that I felt I could actually pass out – then I remembered in my bag I had a packet of teacakes – I don’t know what made me buy them – if I’m honest with you…. I lied to myself and told me that they would be lovely for the grandchildren when the came round – oh yes I did!
Stopping at a set of traffic lights I could hold back no longer – I reached across to the bag they were in – snatched them out – ripped them open and I’m not proud of this…. but I drove with one hand as I deftly removed the little individual foil wrappers with the other hand and stuffed the entire teacake into my mouth…. I repeated this action no less than 12 times… until I got home – where I sat on the drive way and consumed the remaining 4 teacakes *shame faced*
Okay – it was bad…. But… Diet Chef had delivered – and… ”After all, tomorrow is another day”…. so says Scarlett…. anyway I got in and unpacked Diet Chef…
Wednesday I was damn near perfect… until late afternoon when I had to make a MAJOR (the reason why I had been in Town yesterday) decision……… it’s pretty much a life changing decision……….. or it could be……….. and this really stressed me out – so that pushed me very close to the edge… after I’d made the decision – I was riding pretty high on the adrenalin rush………. until something else very stressful happened (not related to my major decision) and what did I find myself doing? – can’t you guess? I’m so predictable – I found myself eating peanut butter straight from the jar with a TABLEspoon!!!!!!!!!!!!!
RIGHT then………. today………..
I’m good, I’m really really good – I’m so good I’m bad I’ve gone to work with my Diet Chef and I’ve been fabulous – except…. that I didn’t take any snacks and I think going back on the diet was a body shock……… by 4pm if it didn’t move, I wanted to eat it……….
I headed home planning on a slice of toast – very reasonable before dinner – it would tide me over……. then I realised – I didn’t have anything in the house for John – so I had to nip to the local village store and pick up something for his dinner this evening…….. which I did…. and then what happened? I picked up a packet of cakes – WHY? WHAT THE HELL WAS I THINKING…. let’s just say by the time I got home (2mins in the car) the packet was empty……. it can’t get any worse can it? OH YES IT FLIPPIN CAN! I then came in and made myself a slice of heavily buttered toast!!!!!!
Please tell me this is normal? Please tell me that you’ve done this too? because right now I feel extremely freaky!
I’m blaming this on what is currently going on in my life – something really BIG like I said – something exciting and at the same time exceedingly SCARY!!! I don’t want to reveal the details just yet – well, no, that’s not strictly true – I SO SO SO SO SOOOOOOOOOOOOO want to tell all!!!! BUT until it’s official I feel it best not to… but keeping it zipped is so hard and I haven’t entirely managed it – I have to keep giving out little clues which I am sure irritates the life out of all of my friends on Facebook! I do promise I will tell all though – as soon as I can – even in the event of it not actually going forward – either way I will tell you!
I’m not writing today off – I’m having Diet Chef as planned and tomorrow I’m going to take some fruit to work with me!